Sunshine on my skin makes me feel from within.

Early morning walks to the volcanically heated pond are my favorite. The wind blew whispers through the palm trees that flowed through my hair. The sunshine kissed my skin and warmed it. 

Passed by the sacred dragon fruit cactus. Yes you read that right! Dragon fruit is the lush fruit of a cactus. It takes three years to bloom fruit & it is one of the worlds super fruits. Gaia had none to offer today but that's okay because she replenishes every so often for me to take.  (Luckily I still have some in the fridge!)

Hibiscus bushes always catch my eye and today what also caught my eye was this lone yellow one. How bravely he was growing through the essence of hot pink ones. He wanted to be different. 

I snapped a picture of this little fire elemental friend seconds before he ran off and was never to be seen again. He obviously had some big business to do today ;]

My beautiful wife, my feets, and muh bag of crystals. Water healing benefited us all today. We explored a new part of the pond we never had before and I asked archangel Michael to protect me of the unknown and he assured me I have nothing to fear and to let myself go with the flow of the ocean. I did just that, and water seeped into my Heart Chakra and cleared away fear. My Root Chakra swelled as the water pushed against my skin. 

I wonder if palm trees look down and see their beautiful resilient reflection in the clear water. 

Crystal charging in the tropical sunnnn!

Gaia'sHealing

Mother Earth herself presents her power to us daily, it is up to us to see it. More than ever I have found myself relying on Gaia to help soothe pain of past body trauma. I press any part of my body against her green hair or lay my skin against any tree spirits soft bark and ask them gently to heal my pain, they always answer in taking my pain away. In turn, I clean trash for them. Everyday the souls of my feet grace sacred soil, and mother draws it out of me like poison. She teaches me forgiveness of this situation, and cradles me in her arms as I refill the hole in my soul. She tells me that it was but a lesson, and that forgiveness will get me to the other side. So I forgive and she refills me. "You see, child. It is not your fault that someone else did not realize sharing light is better than stealing it." Mother Earth let's me take all I need to heal. Strength takes over my mind and I no longer feel "dirty" or like a "victim" I am just becoming me, and this will just be a piece of me forever and that is okay. You know those lumps in your throat? I got that when I typed that. Father healing flows in and out of me and MotherEarth  reminds me she loves me. It's like my body was numb and it is becoming mine again. Through earth, is healing. Through healing, is me. 

natural disasters

It's getting to be around that time again...
and all of the memories begin to flood in again. I push them out with all my force and they fight back harder, my body remembers.
Your free will will never over power mine, and it never did. I never let you do anything to me
Stealing my light without me asking, invasion of my sacred temple, my walls crumbled.
Angry and defeated, my soul never stops screaming.
I am nothing but my own being.
Iv'e spent enough time crying and blaming myself for someone's lack of passion and heart.
You shattered my vision and fogged my reality, clouded my body with your disease of doom.
I forgive you for myself and the well being of my body.
but there's one more thing Iv'e always wanted to say.
It was never my fault.

Receiving reality.

I am ever growing, ever blooming, ever flourishing, ever healing. The cycle never stops until my heart does.
My soul is intertwined with this body, taking it on a journey home.
Breathe everything Iv'e learnt before this out, and breathe the tropical air in.
My dreams are my vivid reality, painted in front of me in what Iv'e always wanted to call home.
Rooting myself to it's sacred soil, Hawaii welcomes me.
I feel nothing but peace beneath me.
We are taught to think "what if we never make it? what if our dreams never come true?"
And I am simply saying to you all "but ah, what If they do?'
What a time of complete transformation I am in, constantly shedding that no longer serves me.
I peel my eyes back more and more everyday, as I cannot believe it.
My soul brought itself home.

Breathing inward

Hawaii is not easy, but it’s not really hard either. Things unfold in a different manner and they are so real and I can touch them with my hands. Pureness kisses my skin everyday and I am flocked with emotions pouring out of me, as I realize my whole life right before my eyes. My thoughts roll backwards and I see everything that my life has ever been, spray painted in front of me. I run my fingers along old memories and fondle things with my mind that I miss and for a minute in my heart I can’t stop feeling comfortable with familiarity and I’m sure it’s all I want, and then I remember that it’s not even there anymore. Everything exploded behind me as I was leaving and it had been for years, and then it stabs me in the heart that I made it out alive. That all of those nights spent crying my eyes dry when I was 15 about the winters being too fucking cold and high school being to fucking hollow were worth it. My mind lets go and I explode as I escape the illusion of time for a minute, realizing that this is and has always been my reality. Sweat of sweet destiny pours down my face as the tropical sun beats upon me and I am home. Finally. Waves of adjustment continue to crash in but I just hold steady and put my fingers in my ego’s mouth to shut it up. The sun drys my tears for me and sweet harmony of the jungle becomes my steady comfortable instead of the old sound of the city train. I mouth the words “home” as the moon whispers them back to me and walks me to bed.